The weekend is here and boy is it HOT.....I lay in the camper last night listening to the rain beat on the roof and watching the lightening flash around through the vent in the ceiling....I love listening to the rain on the roof, it's the best sleeping pill.
It also makes for great time for thinking and reflection on life. There are times when I wonder WHY? and last night was one of them. T.,my friend Julie's daughter, has been having testing done. She had the gene testing done (her mom had encouraged her for a couple years before she died) finally and she does carry the gene that causes the cancer that killed her mom. So now it's does she want to have another baby? And she does, she doesn't want Ryan to be an only child. So when? They did her cancer counts and they are actually lower than mine and neither of us are at zero. The plan at this point is to get pregnant, have the baby and then have a double mastectomy and a hysterectomy. And she's not even 30 yet!!! It's amazing that they can prevent these things by doing these procedures, but then you think WHY should anyone have to make these decisions and have these major surgeries done while they are still so young.
I reflected on her life and what's she dealing with last night listening to the rain before it put me to sleep.

On another note, it's hard to believe how much my life has changed in the last few years. My faith has gotten stronger, and my friends at military moms have had a lot to do with that. They are they greatest bunch of women. No matter what's going on they are there, always with a prayer, encouragement and STRENGTH!!!! I can always count on them. The helicopter crash and everything that happens in Iraq and Afghanistan is always on my mind because even though my son is out of the Army, my friends have children still in. I worry right along side of them. I wait almost as impatiently as they do waiting to hear word their child is safe -- for one more day--because that's one more day closer to coming home ALIVE.

As moms, we worry as they are growing up, are we raising them right, are they really learning the lessons we are teaching them about life? and then they are grown and out from under our control. If you step back and really look, you do see they did learn some of what we instilled in them as youngsters. I still find it amazing to see what Rob did learn. It's like...WOW he really did hear me. Rob still has a lot to learn about life and responsibility but he's getting there, I can see it and it's a wonder to me sometimes. I'm sure most of you heard this from your moms and have said it to your children -- I hope someday you have a child just like you -- usually when they were on last nerve -- well Rob's day has come, Shannon started walking at 9 months and is now into everything, I loved the phone call "Mom, I can't take my eyes off her for a second or she's into something" I just laughed at him, and said no matter what she does, she' ll never be as bad as you were sometimes. Some of the things he calls about, just make me laugh and others make me reflect.

Well onto the weekend chores, laundry and then back to camp to swim since it's so HOT, course that's if it doesn't rain like they are predicting, then I'll just curl up with my book.
Have a great weekend everyone and know my prayers are with you no matter what's going on in your life